Struggle

I realize how easily prone to disillusionment I actually am.

It seems as though day to day I can experience feelings of depression, feelings of inadequacy, feelings of being intensely overwhelmed.

I quickly slip into wishing I was in another season, looking ahead to what it will be like when my girls are a little bit older and the challenging "toddler" season is over.  Or looking back and thinking how amazing it was when I had a choice to sleep in (even if it was just one day a week!), or keep a clean house for more than half an hour or eat a meal without interruptions.

I am so thankful for our God-given ability to be self-aware.  To be able to step outside of our mind, outside of our emotions and look at ourselves.  With more clarity these days, I have been able to do that and be okay with where I am at, even if it is a place of struggle.

When you begin to live more in the reality of the Kingdom of God than in the reality of the world that can be seen, you begin to have the capability to see more clearly your struggles, your heart's cries, your needs and stand outside of them, recognizing that they are not all there is.  That in the midst of all of those things, you are okay.  You still have the option of joy.  Literally.  For real.  You can feel intense joy about your life as you live from the reality of heaven each and every day.

Your day-to-day problems and my day-to-day problems are real, and they matter to God.  They deeply matter to God.  My overall well being matters so much to God that He sees beyond my daily struggles, and I am beginning to see beyond them too.  Yet He cares about them so much that He has provided His glorious grace to make me a victor every time in the midst of them.  I am overcoming.  I am overcoming!


Take comfort, beloved.  God's desire for you and your full potential matter far more to Him than they do to you even.  In due time, you will begin seeing yourself emerging from your cocoon of doubt, of struggle, and you will find that all this time your struggles were enabling you to take flight into the freedom that is your inheritance as son or daughter in the Kingdom of our Glorious Father!