I never cease to be amazed by the intimate Father that I have. He thinks about me, really thinks. He is concerned with my well being above my comfort level, above my mood, and above my attitude. That is true love. He always has the end in mind (that being my potential and my overall emotional/spiritual health), so he is able to focus on the long term and isn't afraid of encouraging me on even when it is uncomfortable for me. I love that about him. I love that about him!!! What a wisdom he carries to be able to love his children in that way.
As I am in the final stretch of my second pregnancy (with 5 1/2 weeks to go) I wake up every morning after a 2 to 3 times interrupted (at best) night's sleep with a swollen face, ankles, and hands, a backache, shortness of breath, tingly hands, and a lot of perspiration. Add to that the fact that I have a 21 month old, who is a true joy, and also has a lot of energy and a lot of opinions, and my day is set up for almost anything. There is a very tangible choice in front of me every morning--the choice of attitude. I can choose to dwell in the peace of Papa every minute of every day, knowing in my heart of hearts that he is good and is delivering my very best to me in a very exquisitely presented present called grace, or I can choose to go where my mind and body would probably most naturally lead me to: frustration, fatigue, and unrest.
The gift of grace is so ornate and so tailored to my specific second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year, and lifetime that it would be foolish to ignore it. I am slowly learning this thanks to a good friend called Sarayu, a.k.a. Holy Spirit.
I am a completely normal woman, wife, and mother of three who is re-defining what bravery looks like.
2 comments:
:) I see you've read "The Shack"... I have a few chapters to go, its been really interesting!
But you are so right that the days outcome is primarily a choice on our part. The Lord has been reminding me all day of the scripture "Be anxious for nothing but in all things, by prayer and petition make your requests known to God..." Its a relief to stop and express our heart to the Lord, and just release the burdens.. He knows every thought but still calls us into active communion. Gosh I love the Lord, I love that Hes so jealous for us and Im so glad to hear that your basking in that knowledge.
Im praying for you during this last stretch of pregnancy. you go girl!!
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