There's been this one thing. This one thing that has kept me locked up for awhile. This one thing that has kept me from experiencing Jesus on the deepest level that I can. This one thing that has kept me from living in total freedom each day. This one thing that has kept me from being "me" all the time.
Food.
And the Lord has been tugging on my heart, and through struggle and heartache and depression I have realized that it is no longer about me being thin or losing weight. It is about me not being able to have the most intimate relationship with my best friend because something is standing in the way.
It has been a couple of months journey now. I am so thankful that as I step out in faith, knowing that Jehovah Rapha is healing me, I am seeing clearly. I feel like that song: "I can see clearly now the rain is gone...."
It is amazing the perspective that you can have upon making one simple decision. A simple decision to give up excess. A simple decision to let the Lord fulfill me instead of the things that He has created.
And to me, it doesn't matter what weight I am right now, how I look. Because I can see God clearly and that is more than enough my friends. Waaaay more than enough to satisfy this famished and parched spirit that is crying out for Him!
I am a completely normal woman, wife, and mother of three who is re-defining what bravery looks like.
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