Grace

I am always quite amazed by the mysterious ways of the grace of God.

It seems to come the very minute I need it.  Never early, never, ever late.  The timing of God is impeccable.  In every sense of the word.

There have been so many times in life where I was confused by the timing of God.  Or not quite pleased with His timing.  As I look back over my life so far, keeping in mind that hindsight is 20/20, I realize how incredibly on time God actually has been.  Every time.

For the last 10 days, I have been a single mom.  Benjie went to Thailand to visit one of our teams that is there.  Every time he goes out of town, I dread it.  I have a mental countdown in my head leading up to "D-Day".

And it's funny.  Because every time we say good-bye, kiss our last kiss and hug our last hug, I get back in the car, drive away, and without fail, the grace falls on me.  I realize how I actually do this every day.  I am alone with the girls every day while Benjie is at work.  Several nights in the week I am also alone while he is doing other ministry-related things.  I know how to single-handedly take care of my children.  But somehow I don't feel capable until the moment I actually need to single-handedly do it!

And I tell you, the grace just doesn't lift until the moment he returns!  This is an amazing gift for sure.

I am so thankful to God for His grace.  His truly mysterious grace.

Lord, give me more of an understanding of your daily grace.  Let that revelation sink deeper and deeper into my soul and bring with it that everlasting joy that is mine in you.  Amen.